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[  Mood: Confused ]

Yeah....uum....got an email saying the guy died
yeahhhhhh wasnt expecting that
uum.....yeah I unno what to say to that so uum....yeah.

on a brighter note! Imma getting a D&D Mini to use when playing with Lilwolf and Flame. Woooot!

and hopefully ill get some pictures done sometime soon :3

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[  Mood: Very Sad ]

Okay I ordered this thing on the 9th. I can say, honestly, 13 business days have passed and still the order is "Pending/on hold/Awaiting payment"

I freakin mailed the damned money order...


why wont it come in? T_T

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[  Mood: Sleepy ]

aaand yeah
great day and all and then Lilwolf and I almost got ran over

by a cop car

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[  Mood: Fed Up WIth Life ]

Just when i thought my life couldn't bother me anymore everything came crashing down. I'm just....so....UUUUGH..... so Here it is.

I'm going to tell all my problems in here, though they're gonna be shortened

Where to start? The Peruvian bitch living in my living room

eating all my food, using all my things, and touching and moving my stuff. Wtf, lady, seriously? I thought my mom was bad, but this woman is worse

and the voodoo!

Oh man its getting WORSE

the hell are these people doing? My house is like, bad karma R US
I think theres a demon in my house
I think she called it up
really. i do

What can be worse?

Oh, right, my house isn't my house

Mom, you win an award for "the most epic fail ever"

"Oh, hes a Rabi so he wont do anything wrong" HA
HAHA
BULL
that fat ass drives a hummer, which, hes so fat when he got in it the thing shook. But yeah, personal driver, tons of offices. yeah how is this guy this freakin loaded? SCAM

SCAM SCAM SCAM

I said something was wrong, but I let her talk me into it. Let her tell me it was alright

now we are in court and hes getting sued for fraud, stealing, identity theft......

yeah ain't my mom a winner?

I'm more of an idiot for believing her...

anyway so yeah we're sorta fixing it now

I'm 10 grand short

fuck school at this point >< my classes were bullshit

I'm going to get a job, save up, and damn it I wanna COOK

FUCK YOU FAMILY

I don't wanna draw!

I wanna turn my flute into a potato gun and shoot targets in my back yard with it

in short, I have fun cooking.

so I'm going to do that

no matter what they say

okay uum what elseeeee

OH!

my teeth. Yeah. eating? Drinking? Pain in the ass. Hot food? Hurts my teeth. Cold? Pain. Cant I get a break? Really now!

and then theres annoying people. Why do they keep coming back? Really. I block them, but they get a new SN or whatever and IM me again!

and really now, my name? Has been Nienna for forever now

so, why the hell should you have to ASK for my DA name? come on people. even my Facebook name is Nienna.

one side of my family are all getting married

man that makes me depressed

I cry at weddings

because I feel Ill never get there. Ill never be that happy, I don't think. Its getting harder and harder to imagine. But anyway > > yeah, wedding, they let out butterflies

they were landing on people. I sat there watching them going "ooooh pretty ~~ ~"

yeah thats my head. the rest of the time there were no real thoughts.....

well, they played Poker Face, and i dragged Wolfy up to dance with me

then we did the electric slide. He tried to teach me cotton eyed Joe. Then we did the.....>CHICKEN DANCE

then the Mackarania....oh hell I don't know the spelling of the damn dance.

anyway, yeah.

what else though.....

have D&D sessions

make me feel so alive @ @

I love them. Flame and Lilwolf are there with me. Anathe might join now. That would be nice. We have to see, though. all my RPs are coming back to life. Thats also nice.

but my allergies are a hell of a lot worse. Sneezing and coughing all the time. Makes baking hell ><

.....then I have moments like right now. What the hell was I doing again? I cant remember anymore...Why did I even want to type all this out? I don't know. I feel so...sad? My house is just bad to be in. I need to get out. But where can I go? I don't know anymore. Maybe thats why D&D is so amazing to me. Cause i'm not home. I'm away from my biological family, and Im away with friends

yeah

those are my real family

and the people here on cel

not that many of them are on to talk to me > >

I still feel happier here then home.

Though Lilwolf has this way to make me feel all better. I always feel something when hes around. but I think by now Ive rambled enough. I'm feeling a little better at least

Ill prolly go and play Chrono Trigger

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[  Mood: Sick ]

[  Currently: Listening to Lady Gaga ]

All I'm gonna say is right now I am sick

no clue how I got this way but I am

and I hate it

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[  Mood: Sleepy ]

[  Currently: Working Working on stuffs ]

okay so its kind of obvious. Ive been doing a lot of writing, and drawing lately. And my hands starting to really hurt from it. And I know I should probably take a break from it all, but I cant. I have a deadline to when I want to get this all finished. I would love it if I was done with this all Christmas Eve, cause well, yeah. I WILL work that day if I have to !!!

Not that I'll like it.

But on the bright side, I am hopefully almost done with that I have to do!

Which is really REALLY good!

Anyways, cant wait till the 6th

yaaaaay December 6th!!

Its Wolfy and I's anniversary!

and I also cant wait till the 21'st of December

that's the winter solstice this year!

W00T!


~Have yourself, a scary little solstice

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[  Mood: Distorted ]

Okay so I had a nightmare. Happens to everyone, but today's was...different. I remember having it, and my alarm went off. That was at 8. So nothing too odd about that. But it wasn't really a nightmare then. More like a confusing WTF dream. So yeah, went back to bed. But then it got odd. I never fall asleep that fast, but I did, and my nightmare begun...

It was so odd. Going into this building, and finding some little girl, floating. We had to hide, or else get captured. Well we did this three times. I got caught the first two, so my lags and hands were bound like a mummy. So I got them off my hands, then legs and ran the hell out of there. But we got herded back if you didnt get out the door. I was right there though, figures doesn't it? Anyway, yeah, back to that strange factory

Now, my gym teacher was there. Only ha had glasses on, 2 pairs. but that's getting ahead, we were doing some bowling thing. This person that goes after me went in my stead at the last round, so I was getting punished for it. How it was my fault I unno but you know how nightmares are

Anyway, so he puts this...collar on me. Its all sex related too. Creeped me out. Im brought to the top of this like, water slide. All water park style too. Everyones watching. the guy said "You are going to be strapped down, spread egal, and stretched till you cry out in pain. Then we will add water and watch you drown so very slowly." Then he seemed to be talking, not that I was listening and he mentioned. "Do you think god will save you now?" And going on a rant. I remember thinking. 'There is no god, cause if there were, he wouldn't leave me with a nut job like you' anyway, he seemed to be reading my mind cause he said. "Its a shame really, not like in the 50's. No good cristian neighbors to help you"

And then I thought, lets kick this loose part of the slide. and hell, it worked. So I managed to slip out, slide down the slide part, then down the ladder. Something I could never do in real life. Anyway I pulled the ladder, its was tiny now. Like a toy firetruck ladder. Anyway, he was floating towards be, and I waked him. He fell into two Lego like pieces. Yeah, I booked it. Once outside I looked back, and BAM

I'm back inside again, just finished bashing him. I stare at Lilwolf, then the two of us run out. Then again, I see him running after me, with me, to get away. and now all these other people that I seem to know, apparently also captured, are running with us. All to get out.

So yeah, I wake up, clutching my Lilwolf dolly that Wolfy made me in build a bear ( well, the replacement cause the first ones fur melted.) Im crying in my sleep, sweating too. But I'm FREEZING cold. I managed to crawl out of bed, but I hurt all over. Cant seem to move right. I'm still so very tired, but Im glad I woke up now. then I think, the hell time is it? Its 10 now. 2 hours. I was trapped in a nightmare for 2 hours. What the hell? I think, that's not possible! Dreams only last for seconds. How did this happen?

Oh, by the way, I just noticed I had this blog today. Yeah, something is defiantly wrong with me.